dear you,

i dont understand you.

you should be like, my best friend.
yet, i fear you.
i dont trust you.


you ridicule me and embarass me in front of my friends.
youre inconsiderate and disrespectful.

im older than you.
yet, i do not even have the courage to even talk to you.
if i talk to you, you just yell at me and close/lock your door,
running away from the problem.

what am i supposed to do?
i'm worried about you.
i dont understand
how can i talk to you without you getting so angry


i say one thing and you claim that i'm bossy
i ask one question and you claim that i'm nosy

liek honestly. wtf.
were supposed to trust each other...

be best friends.

honestly, as much as i love you,
i can't wait until i go to college and leave this fear around.

if only you listened and just took advice.

honestly, you'll deny this

but im older than you,
im smarter than you
and i may not be able to write as well as you
run as fast as you
or attract boys as well as you


but i think that i know just a little more than you do on life..

at least more than your friends and peers...
why cant you give me the chance?


im sorry for all the times i pissed you off,
annoyed you,
been in your way,


but hey im worried about you.

and sadly, i cant even tell this to your face
because you'll just spit at my advice
and call it stupid and lame.


im tired of being embarrassed day by day
and being pushed over by you.

and im tired of you pushing everyone i love away.

please just listen
be understanding
be respectful

and as cliche as it sounds
i want this because i love you
and care about you

and i know that the direction you're headed
isn't a positive path...


you know,
theres so many things i can tell you.
negative things.
but you know what?
i love you.
and i know you're already broken.
i want you to be happy again.


don't just look to your friends for the answers.
cuz trust me, i can see right through them
they're all fake, desperate jerks


i love you....