boredddddddddddddddd

How can I win your heart?
ahha i dont think its that hard...
Who knows a big secret about you?
someone i regret telling..
Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2010?
once 2010 beginss and i turn 18, yes !!
Can money buy happiness?
temporarily
Are you looking forward to anything?
being 18 and graduating
How late did you stay up last night?
12
Do you have any plans for tomorrow?
volunteering, running errands, bday presents, practice
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
noo
What do you introduce yourself as?
kelley
Do you live at home with your parents?
yes
Do you consider yourself a bitch?
im so fake :[
Do you get drunk every weekend?
no way
What are you wearing, in detail?
shorts and a shirt :]
Honestly, what's on your mind?
i want to go to disneyland!!
Is it hard for you to get over someone?
yesssssssss
What was the best thing that happened today?
hmm idk, probably just laughing and having fun with nicole and alexis during the JV game ahahaha
Who was the first person to break your heart?
nobody
Has anyone disappointed/upset you recently?
eh, not really.
Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
no
Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?
eh nobody
Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
no
Have you ever thought about having plastic surgery?
no
Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them?
ahahah yes!
When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
today
Is there such thing as a perfect relationship?
no
Do you straighten your hair everyday?
no
When was the last time you drank an alcoholic beverage?
never
Who did you talk to on the phone last?
daddyy
Whos the last person you texted?
AHHA, michael dang
Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon?
yess, the proposal, transformers 2 and harry potter!
Are you easily scared at horror films?
YES, even non horror films lol
Last time you cried?
longg time ago
If you were offered a shot of whiskey right this second, would you accept?
no
What about heroin?
no
Has a boy/girl ever called you Babe or baby?
ugh, don't mention it.
Who was the last person you had an argument with?
kailynne
Did you go out or stay in last night?
hm stay in?
Do you feel like people treat you unfairly?
not really, but people underestimate me
What do you want more than anything right now?
i want to be 18. and to have money.
Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
yessss!
Whos the last person you slept in a bed with?
hmm, i have no idea....ahahha, probably megan and nicole?
Be honest, who are you texting?
nobody
Do you ever use words like stoked, souped or sick?
no
What do you think your number 1 is doing right now?
trying to not be a loner, lol
Does it take a lot to make you cry?
in public, yess. at home, no.
Do you think two people can last forever?
yeah
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
i think so
Did you have an exciting last weekend?
pretty funn :D
Is there a secret you've never told your parents?
duhhhhhhhhhhhh
Has anyone told you they don't wanna ever lose you?
ahahah BS
Have you ever slept on the floor with someone you liked?
eh not really
Ever been so drunk someone else had to carry you?
no
When someone says "we need to talk", what runs through your mind?
depends who it is
What color are your eyes?
brown
How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
idk...2?
Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
yess!
Which friend of yours have you been friends with longest?
probably the Zugs, my second home!
Which was better: Twilight the movie or book?
LOL, im sure the book was better, even though i haven't read it
If you took a drug test right now would you pass or fail?
pass
Do you like a boy/girl right now?
yes
Whats the closest thing to you that's liquid?
idk water?
Is anything bothering you?
kind of
Are you excited for next year?
in exactly one year, yess
What are you looking forward to the most in the next week?
moviess, BEACH PARTY, alvinas partyy, harry potter, shopping and yeahh :D
Anything interesting happen last night?
eh
Are you wearing pants? If so, where did you get them from?
oxfords shorts :D
Has anything happened to you within the past month that has made you really angry?
haha YES
Do you go to the tanning bed on a regular basis?
never in my life
What made you decide to wear the outfit you wore today?
gaaame
Have you ever kissed a blonde haired, blue eyed person?
i have not
Do you enjoy wearing dresses?
eh whatever
Are you different from how you were a year ago?
in some ways, yes
Do you have any summer plans yet?
yeah pretty much, but we should still do something!
What was the last thing you drank?
water
Are you currently wearing a shirt with long or short sleeves?
short
Do you have any bruises?
yes stupid games!
Are there any stressful situations in your life?
yes, more than anyone knows about
If you could move somewhere else, would you?
i'd move out, but not anywhere far away
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
no
What color did you last paint your nails?
white
What is your love life like?
mmmmmm'
Where's the last place you went?
jack in the box
Are you tan?
i was, but probably not anymore.
but saturdayy :D:D:D:D
Do you were alot of make up?
no
Are you currently frustrated with someone?
sister
Do you miss your past?
my innocence!
What did you do today?
library, clean, violin lesson, game, jack in the box
Do you delete people off of MySpace?
no, but people delete me! jerks hahaha
Have you ever wanted to never give up on someone?
of course
Are you wearing any makeup right now?
no
What time did you wake up today?
830
Was is by nature or did someone/something wake you up?
nature -__-

oh and i have come to the conclusion

that white boys are either a) weird or b) cocky.

idk...everyone i know fits in one of these 2 categories...

i need to stop

overreacting.

HUME

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summer goals

-have money.dont go broke.
-disneyland!!
-bonfiresss/beach!
-doubledatesss
-hang out with megan rajajaj
-talk with megan rajajaj regularly
-visit colleges -__-
-practice instruments
-bond with friends (:
-shop shop shop shop
-don't get sick
-keep parents happy
-dont get fat
-moooooooovies!
-dont procrastinate on summer hw



mm wtf i dont remember anything TBD

dear you,

i dont understand you.

you should be like, my best friend.
yet, i fear you.
i dont trust you.


you ridicule me and embarass me in front of my friends.
youre inconsiderate and disrespectful.

im older than you.
yet, i do not even have the courage to even talk to you.
if i talk to you, you just yell at me and close/lock your door,
running away from the problem.

what am i supposed to do?
i'm worried about you.
i dont understand
how can i talk to you without you getting so angry


i say one thing and you claim that i'm bossy
i ask one question and you claim that i'm nosy

liek honestly. wtf.
were supposed to trust each other...

be best friends.

honestly, as much as i love you,
i can't wait until i go to college and leave this fear around.

if only you listened and just took advice.

honestly, you'll deny this

but im older than you,
im smarter than you
and i may not be able to write as well as you
run as fast as you
or attract boys as well as you


but i think that i know just a little more than you do on life..

at least more than your friends and peers...
why cant you give me the chance?


im sorry for all the times i pissed you off,
annoyed you,
been in your way,


but hey im worried about you.

and sadly, i cant even tell this to your face
because you'll just spit at my advice
and call it stupid and lame.


im tired of being embarrassed day by day
and being pushed over by you.

and im tired of you pushing everyone i love away.

please just listen
be understanding
be respectful

and as cliche as it sounds
i want this because i love you
and care about you

and i know that the direction you're headed
isn't a positive path...


you know,
theres so many things i can tell you.
negative things.
but you know what?
i love you.
and i know you're already broken.
i want you to be happy again.


don't just look to your friends for the answers.
cuz trust me, i can see right through them
they're all fake, desperate jerks


i love you....

=/

=/ dang. i thought now that the school year was over, i would get a break, but apparently not...

today i had an interview with a potential piano teacher i might have...eh its for sure that ill have her. shes strict and she requires 4 hours of practice a day...

i cant do that. i cant even practice 20 minutes a day.

haha, its so crazy how i got by basically my entire life doing the minimum and still getting the highest scores on cm and competitions in general. now imma have to step it up, sadly.




but then, she was talking to my parents about colleges for music and stuff, and strongly suggested to them that i go to a calstate, and was strongly against private colleges. F. my parents are convinced.